HNT - 22 I am proud

Delicately lifting my transparent black gown, I deliberately show you my navel, my black lacy panties and creamy thighs, but what I intend to show you is my round tummy, not a perfectly toned tummy, but the tummy that sheltered three babies, three wonderful children, which looked like an oversized egg at three different occasions.  My tummy is soft and not very firm, but I am proud of it, even if it is not perfect.

Dating?

My inspiration for writing seems to have gone for the moment.  No time to concentrate on it either.  I do have quite a lot on my plate, taking care of judgmental children, seeking an apartment, paying bills, having nightmares about all the things that need to be fixed in my life, etc.

Thankfully, I have a bunch of online friends, old and new, who make my days brighter. Blooging is such a rewarding experience!  

Recently I put my profile on a dating site.  Am I too picky, or are there only boring men seeking a partner? Are dating sites mostly for people having problems meeting someone in real life? Are they for people looking for easy sex?  I feel so naive, and so reluctant to go through all this trouble.... So, I had a first date with a tiny guy - not really my type - two weeks ago, I was surprised that it went rather well.  "I do not look for an affair, my life is too complicated at the moment, I am looking for friends and see what happens... Do you have your own flat?", that's what he told me and I could not agree more, but why should he ask about my flat? I should have reacted immediately. To summarize, we decided to go to an outdoor music festival, but he ditched me the day before because he had had sex with someone else.  And I happened to bump into him, among the huge crowd, and he acted like an asshole....  Thank god, he was not my style and we only met once.... But this makes me realize that maybe I'm not ready for this...  Life is already too difficult at the moment, and maybe I should just take care of myself, be happy and not look for anyone for the time being...  I feel puzzled... Yet, I wish to meet nice people who could become friends and maybe more... Why is it so difficult?

Now, I started to take Cuban salsa lessons, which is something I'm looking forward to every week.  I am planning my holidays, with my best friend, for July and started visiting apartments.  I have been waiting so long for things to happen and yet maybe I need to work more on myself and then things will move my way, but time is flying by and I have the feeling things are not moving.  

All this sounds pretty negative, but I'm not down, I'm just hoping. That is what the psychologist my son visited told me, when I found out about the manipulative behaviour of my husband, it is becoming a mantra:

DO NOT LET ANYONE DIM YOUR INNER SUN!

HNT - 21 Hotlips

Hotlips or labios ardientes, a Central American  flower
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In the Mood…

From TMI Tuesday

Rather late, but I don't really care...

1. What puts you in a creative mood?

Traveling, seeing an exhibition, architecture, seeing a piece of art, watching photography, 

visiting blogs, discussions.

2. What puts you in a silly mood?

My children, sometimes friends, sometimes something I see or hear in the media, being tipsy.

3. What puts you in a contemplative mood?

A book, nature, paintings, a discussion, music.

4. What puts you in a competitive mood?

I'm usually not a competitor, but I like some emulation, it depends if it is worth it, in my opinion of course.

5. If you consider yourself a talkative person, what puts you in a quiet mood? If you consider yourself a quiet person, what puts you in a talkative mood?

I am usually a reserved, quiet person, but I can be very talkative depending on the subject, again, traveling, decoration, art, emotions, projects, feelings, music, but I avoid talking about politics and religion.  I keep my opinions to myself, or I can get very upset. lol!

6. What can a person do that will instantly put you in a sexy mood?

It rather has to do with a person's behavior, if there is sexual tension, if he smiles and has a sparkle in his eyes, if he moves like a cat, smells good, teases me,  if he very subtly courts me, lets me know he's attracted by me, if he touches me and I feel sparkles or even goosebumps.  That is what I would call good chemistry and terribly arousing.

Bonus: What song puts you in a sexy mood? If possible post a link to the song so that we can listen to it.

Some good jazz, saxophone.  I really don't have one in mind right now, but I heard Justin Nozuka recently, and I like him.

CafeGlow - Sophia Santi in Pulp Friction

Sophia Santi in Pulp Friction [trailer] from CafeGlow on Vimeo.

TMI Tuesday - 31 May 2011

Suggested by the lovely Hedone.

Go and visit her to check all  the other sexy players

1.  What time did you go to bed last night and were you alone?

I always go to bed around 1 a.m., sometimes even 2.  I know, bad!  But I got used to it.  And unfortunately, I'm very much alone.

2. If you could be given ANY gift what would it be?

Patience, generosity and energy! Oh, only one?  Patience!

3. What was the last film that really moved/disturbed/thrilled you and why?

Das Leben der Anderen, it is a German movie

, from 2007, 

about a man who was assigned by the East German Ministry of Culture to spy on a couple of artists living in East Berlin and considered as the elite of communist artists, to check if they were not diverted by non-communist ideas.  The spy becomes more and more fascinated by them, and in the end discovers they are only pretending to be real communists, and without them knowing it, saves their lives, well almost... The film received many European awards.  It was a very moving and realistic movie. It gave us an insight of how the system worked at that time.  Beautifully done!

4. What is your favorite way to wake up and what is the first thing you do?

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Sleep in, no alarm ringing, but besides of that, my lover spooning me, gently kissing my neck, nibbling at my ear, whispering loving words, his hand on my waist and on my breasts, me feeling something pocking my behind.  This doesn't really happen these days.  I would say to stretch and yawn, listen to some nice music, looking at the sun rays falling on my bed, hearing the birds sing, and smelling the smell of the garden or of breakfast cooking... doesn't happen either, just stretch and yawn and watch the sunlight coming in through the shutters.  Then I go to the bathroom.

5. You’ve been granted an extra hour in the day, what are you going to do?
a. Sleep more
b. Extend a sexual interlude
c. Shop
d. Finally fit in that workout that you usually can’t make time for

a, b, and meditate.  A would be much needed :)

BONUS:  Are you in love or lust?

I wish I was in love!

HNT - 20

Touch & Go - Straight to Number One

Yeah

Ten . . . kiss me on the lips

Nine . . . run your fingers through my hair

Eight . . . touch me . . . slowly

Hold it! Let's go straight . . . to number one

Seven . . . lips

Six . . . slooowly

Five . . . fingers

Four . . . play

. . . to number one

Let's go straight . . . to number one

One

Touch me . . . 

Let's go straight . . .

One

. . . to number one

Lips

Fingers

Feel it?

One

Ten

Nine

Eight

Seven

Six

Five

Four

Three

Touch and go . . .

. . . to number one