What if?

In less than three weeks, I'll be travelling again, guess where?  This picture should give you a hint. 


I will get some time away from home, which is greatly needed.


Last night, I was in bed early with a runny clown's nose and pumpkin head, reading some blogs (I've become completely addicted), when hubby came and told me he had some medicine for my cold.  Delicious medicine!


What if I lick you down there while you suck me down here?  Oh, heaven!  What if I put my fingers in here, moving them in a circle, while my thumb rubs that little bud of yours?  Oh, oh, don't stop!  What if I push that little spot still circling my fingers?  Oh, oh, oh!!!  Oh my God!..........   pant! pant! pant!  How did you do this?  This was just incredible! The bed is soaked.  What if I gave you this medicine for your sore throat?  Hum!  hummmmmpf!  Hmmmm! Hmmmmpff!  Barely breathing with my stuffed-up nose...  Jaw slightly hurting, neck bent in an uncomfortable angle.  Ah!  Breathing again!  Ooops sticky stuff on my breasts, chin, nose and eye! He he he!  Wish someone would take a picture! 

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What if we put up an ad to find a man for a threesome?  HUH?!?  WHAT?!? We had discussed our fantasies at some point, along with having sex in awkward places, watching porn while having sex, etc.

Me (thinking) hm!  Someone with a nice, big cock..

Hubby: he would need to be elegant!

Me (thinking)... yes, hairless chest, butt and shoulders...

Hubby: able to sustain a conversation!

Me: Huh?  you mean you will speak politics and sports while you f**k me?

Hubby: no, before, when we meet him.  He would need to be younger.

Me (thinking)... nice chiselled torso, tight ass, cute smile...

Hubby: and I would not want a fucker!

Me: So, what do you want him for?

Hubby: no, I could not stand a vulgar idiot just wanting to f**k you for the sake of it!  I still don't even know if I could bear the sight of another man having sex with you.

Me ... well, maybe when he sees us he will run away... after seeing my wobbly stomach (after three pregnancies), my sagging breasts after their long lost battle against gravity, or my "flatbed"?

Hubby: so, when do we put up an add?

Me (suddenly waking up from my daydreaming) Oh no!   Can we please talk it over again, there is a difference between fantasies and reality.  Let me just digest this, I'm still under shock!   I need to think it over.

This is where I realised that, although things seem to be going in the right direction for hubby, they may not for me.  I started panicking, wait, wait, wait. This is going too fast!  I need a break away from home and that is exactly what I'm going to have in a few weeks' time. 

Understand me, before Christmas, we were still having arguments, nasty, snappy remarks for each other, and I badly wanted to divorce after we had tried to make things change for ten years. At Christmas, we decided on a truce and, like bonobos, I initiated the "make love not war" behaviour.  Now, things seem to develop in a lighter tone, but I still want to divorce, for many reasons, but basically because it is too late now for me to try and save our marriage.  But hubby seems to think differently.  How can I explain without hurting him more?  Can we not just divorce and be buddies?  We know couples who have divorced and are having affairs with their ex.  Have I done it all wrong? 

May this break help me find the right words, attitude and state of mind to explain calmly what I wish for the two of us in the future.  It need not be painful.

The African Moon (click)

As I already mentioned in a former post, I have an unconditional love for Africa. What struck me is the beauty of its people. I’ve mainly been to Eastern and Southern African countries. Of course, I’m attracted to men, but everywhere they tend to dress in the same fashion - jeans and T-shirts/shirts, nothing remarkable when it comes to observe the shape of their bodies. Be it in Ethiopia, Kenya, Botswana or South Africa, unless they are clad in their ethnic attire, it does not help you to appreicate their bodies. Of course, everywhere you have good looking men, but you can’t see their butts, thighs or stomachs.

What finally attracted my eye where the women, through their colourful clothes, their smiles, the way they moved and their gracious shapes. I saw the most beautiful women. Wasn’t Miss Universe 1999 from Botswana? (Although she is not very dark skinned). Lately, I observed their waist and buttocks. I was positively amazed by their behinds. Some women are just gorgeous! I am not attracted to women, but some are just jaw dropping beautiful - broad shoulders, thin waist and a very pretty round butt, long muscular thighs and long legs! But their booties, my God! And how they move it is just mesmerizing! The first time I saw ethnic dances in Cameroon, I could not believe what I was seeing - how could they move their waists and butts like this? I wouldn’t even know which muscles to move; so supple and sensual, even sexual. We have all heard these comments - whites and blacks are not built the same, well, sometimes you really wonder! I saw very thin long legged gazelles, shorter ones with big breasts and large behinds, and incredibly big bootied Hottentots Venuses, almost like hippo moms, but always found them amazing! Even spectacular!

I am told I have a fetish for booties, maybe. I am drooling when I see great bootie shakes, the male side of me wants to touch booties, kiss and caress, pinch and spank, cup and massage them, lick them, bite them, squeeze and fondle them, like I fondled my children’s behinds when they were babies (this has nothing to do with incest, please!). What struck me is that many Europeans have flat butts. My Kenyan friend calls me “flatbed” because I am so envious of those marvellous shapes. Ladies and gentlemen, cherish and enjoy your booties if they are chunky, muscular, big and round and lovely. You are so blessed!

Random controversial links:
 
http://images.google.fr/imgres?imgurl=http://shcollective.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/ester.jpg&imgrefurl=http://shcollective.com/blog/featured/goddess-intellect-miss-new-booty/&usg=__pbNFEP4k38UwAQW0pKwgUQUKY_s=&h=500&w=359&sz=98&hl=fr&start=45&um=1&itbs=1&tbnid=g2jGiJwuN6DvbM:&tbnh=130&tbnw=93&prev=/images%3Fq%3DAfrican%2Bbuttocks%26ndsp%3D21%26hl%3Dfr%26rlz%3D1T4ADRA_frCH335CH335%26sa%3DN%26start%3D42%26um%3D1
 
http://www.zimbio.com/Hottentot+Venus/articles/3/Hottentot+Venus+transformed+modern+day+Video
 
Real of fake? http://pagesperso-orange.fr/lescopeauxdabord/images/gros%20cul.jpg