100

It is Sunday evening, it's raining outside,  I'm listening to Erykah Badu's Orange Moon and I realise I have 100 followers!

Thank you all! How good it is!

I'm an orange moon
I'm an orange moon
Reflecting the light of the sun

Many nights he was alone
Many many many nights
His light was too bright
So they turned away
And he stood alone
Every night and every day

Then he turned to me
He saw his reflection in me
And he smiled at me
When he turned to me
Then he said to me

How good it is
How good it is
How good it is
How good it is

I'm an orange moon
I'm brighter than before
Brighter than ever before
I'm an orange moon
And I shine so bright
'Cause I reflect the light of my sun

I praise the day
He turned my way
And smiled at me
He gets to smile and I get to
be orange, that I love to be

How good it is
How good it is
How good it is
How good it is
How good it is
How good it is
How good it is
How good he is

How good it is
How good it is

I'm an orange moon
I'm brighter than before
Brighter...
I'm an orange moon
Reflecting the light of the sun

It is spring again!

First, I seem to have gained quite a few new followers lately, let me wish you a warm welcome on my blog!  Just one missing to reach a hundred!  Hehe! Such an achievement! Almost unbelievable! And please don't hesitate to leave comments, they are always welcome.

Spring is back and it is wonderful, my favourite season, I think.  Birds are chirping in the morning when I wake up, building nests during the daytime and chirping again when I come home from work. Spring is light yellow in colour, forsythias being the first bushes to blossom, along with  primeroses.  Small violets show their tiny blue faces on the lawn; and magniolia trees slowly turn into cream and pink.  We are switching to summer time tonight.   

It's seemed such a long winter this year, feeling like being in limbo forever!  It's soon time again for me to pack my suitcase as I will be flying to Central America in two weeks!  Looking forward to equatorial heat, happy sigh!  :) 14 days of continuous work, then one week of vacation, hopefully in Costa Rica.  

I hope to be able to listen to some salsa music and maybe visit a club.  I have decided to go back to dance classes this year and learn Cuban style salsa, as well as the sensual bachata.  As one says, a man who can dance, move his hips and body in a sensual way vertically, may well be a very good dancer horizontally as well, right?  I can confirm!

For those of you who have been following my life since a year or so, I have decided to leave.  I will find myself a place on my own and leave hubby and the children, contrary to what I had wished when hubby and I separated.  It seems that for the time being, I'm unable to handle three rebel teenagers and for everybody's sake, the best solution really is for me to take some distance to be able to overcome depression and break negative viscious circles.  I tried to handle my children, but they are so prejudiced against me, that for my own sanity, it is better to let go.  Maybe later things will be easier, maybe we all need to go through a family therapy, but this will have to be done after hubby has had further surgery and recovered.  I have very mixed feelings about his recovery.  I wonder if he has the mental strength and the positive attitude to recover properly. We shall see.

I have also opened a profile on a dating site recently, so far nothing interesting. It looks like men in general are looking for younger women, sometimes indecently younger women, some are really old ugly men, and then younger men are also looking for younger women and wishing to have children. I am speaking of men about 5 to 10 years younger than me. Where do I fit in?

What I came to realise these last few months is that to feel complete, you do not need to be in a relationship - I have had a lover and friend with whom I have shared a lot of great and unique moments, but I had to accept to let him go. You have to feel your are being yourself and be happy with who you are, with your flaws and strengths. The combination of these strenghts and flaws is what makes you unique, and the fact that you are at peace with whom you are, that you accept the very person you are. As long as you keep looking for someone, especially someone to bring you happiness, you won't find it. Happiness is within you, it is a way of life, not an aim in itself. So, I'm trying to be that person that has always existed deep inside, but for some reason, was unable to be herself completely, to blossom and shine. It is never too late, and I hope she will shine this year and more and more so. I know, I may sound very naïve, as if this was something that I have just discovered, whereas it is obvious to most people. I always knew it, but never managed to make it happen.

And I also wish to all of you that you find this wonderful person within yourselves.

Gray's Provocation

Ode to 2011 NSFW from grayagent on Vimeo.

Copied from kako korikatsi, go and visit her, she has a very sexy blog!

21 Questions

1. How old are you?

2. What’s your favorite color?

    Green.....turquoise.... orange.... Indian pink.... purple....

3. First car you ever had sex in?

    

A Topolino.  I still wonder how we managed!

4. Favorite rated R movie?

    If R is for adults, well, there are so many, it is difficult to choose only one.

5. Favorite flavor of popsicle?

    You really want to know? ;)  It all depends on what type of popsicle it is.  Blushing!

6. Banana or apple?

    Oh I have an idea where this may lead! I bet you're expeting banana? Both, yummy actually! But my favourite is mango.

7. Favorite Jersey shore character?

    What's that?

8. Are your nails painted and if so what color?

    Toes always in the summertime.  Red, Indian pink or purple.

9. Favorite animal?

10. If you could bang a Disney character who would it be?

Since I was a teenager, I fantasized about Peter Pan, actually Disney was inspired by a book from J.M. Barrie, which I read before seeing the Disney movie.  At that time, I found Peter Pan to have an incredible sex appeal.   There is something very erotic about banging while flying, no?  I also dreamt I was one of the naughty mermaids ;)

11. What time is bed time?

      One-ish.

12. Do you have kids?

      Yes, G-19, B-16 and G-13.

13. Last time you bought a toilet brush?

      A question of vital importance.  I bet you really dream to know, huh?

14. Double penetration (come on I had to get one in)

      Still a fantasy, but Mmmmmm!

15. Bubble bath or long hot shower?

      Both, depends of the moment.

16. Can you speak a foreign language?

      English, German, Spanish and a little bit of Italian, and French of course.

17. Describe yourself in 2 words?

      Reserved, enthusiastic.

18. How many tattoos do you have if any?

      None. I never saw one that I liked.  Nowadays, there are many beautiful ones. But, I won't bother.

19. How do you like your eggs?

      As in "omelette".

20. How do you get rid of a hickey…I need to know

      Had to look up the word.  I never had any other than self inflicted as a child, so would not know how to get rid of it.

21. Favorite color to wear.

 Green, red, purple, turquoise, black, white.  I love bright colours.

Please also check at Hedone's who are the sex other players.

Passion

HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEK, MY DEAR FOLLOWERS

Don't we all wish we were here?

Spring Sun

Eyes closed, offered to your splendour

Naked skin, caressed by your heat

Moaning, sighing, enchanted by your gift

Languorously nurtured, warmed, and bedazzled

Needing, loving, yearning for you

Possessed at dawn, noon, and in the crimson hours

Core opening under your exquisite glow

Heart beats, life awakens, petals open

Mind wanders, dreams flow, hope blossoms

To a dear friend

To you, my Dear Friend, may you sail away under a clear BLUE sky, over the ocean, towards your dreams, catch the trade winds in your sails.

EXPLORE.DREAM.DISCOVER

May your future be all you wished for.  

I want you to know I will never forget you!

TMI Tuesday - 8 March 2011

Another TMI hosted by Hedone of The Pleasure Principle.  

Stop there to see who else is playing.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
    Oooh!  Pretty scary!  I look like I have been hibernating for months!

2. If you could take a class for fun right now, what would you take?
    Actually, I'm planning to take several:  salsa dance, English writing and photography, if I  manage.

3. What did the last text message you received on your mobile/cell phone say?
    It's sunny today, let's go cross-country skiing!

4. What was the last song you listened to?
     Florence and the machine - Blinding

5. What was the last song you sang or hummed (cuz it's stuck in your head)?
    The Beatles - Eight days a week.

6. First thing you wash in the shower?
    My hair.

7. When was the last time you masturbated in the shower?
     Decades ago.  I never lock the door.

8. What color is your couch?
    Ecru, now it is more grey.
    
9. Have you had sex on your couch?
    Funny, I cannot even remember if I did!

Picture from here

I must learn to love the fool in me. The one who feels too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries.

Theodore Isaac Rubin

TMI Tuesday - 1 March 2011

Angkor Thom, Siem Reap, Cambodia

Where in the world have you been that you thought was paradise?

Well, for those of you who have followed my blog since the beginning, you know I love Africa.  To be more precise, I have had the privilege, through my work, to be able to go to several Eastern and Southern African countries and my heart goes to Kenya and South Africa.  Beautiful countries!  Then I also went to Bali, Cambodia and Vietnam.  Bali is a gem, but all of them are amazing.  And soon I will be travelling to Central America, so I’m getting rather excited at the prospect of discovering new cultures and new landscapes.

What is your favorite bumper sticker?

I like "French Tickler" as suggested by Hedone.

If you had a vanity license plate, what would it say?

I don’t know what this is. We don’t have them in Europe.  After a second thought, maybe Naughty Frenchy.

Who is your favorite porn star?

I am not so much into porn, and I prefer to watch amateur porn.  I recently saw Angel Dark, she is gorgeous.

Do you have any hidden talents?

If they are hidden, they mean things I can only show in certain circumstances, well I’m too modest to think of them as talents.  

Which kind of puppies do you hate the most?

Puppies?  I don’t hate puppies, I love animals.  

Did you watch the Academy Awards? Why?

No, I don’t watch TV these days anymore, I find it boring or programs I would be interested in are too late.  

Please go check who the other players are at Hedones'